Eve

well it's the eve of the eve of the day when super cool things start to happen. it's the eve of the eve of the morning in which we open presents we have put under the little charlie brown tree. wow! presents. i did not expect presents to happen this year. and then suddenly there were a ton! and the tree looks so much prettier!

it's the eve of the eve of the day on which we wake up and eat delicious fat juicy cinnamon rolls and drink coffee slowly. that's a tradition in both of our pasts.

it's the eve of the eve of the day when guy and i sit around fat and happy all day. then go to a cocktail party thrown by our off-the-charts, over-the-top, "i'll-join-the-circus-if-you-say-so" cool neighbors, and new friends.

it's the eve of the eve of the day on which we also go visit an old friend. a dear friend. a friend who is the champion in the fight with himself over meth addiction. he's five months clean and going strong. best present ever.

it's the eve of the eve of the day when no doubt i will cry buckets of happy tears, as i am now crying buckets of sad tears while hearing "The Rose" coming off the TV in the next room.

it's the eve of the eve of the day that's two days closer to the darkness turning to daylight, the end of the ever-burdening fluorescent-light reign at work. and to gardening in the evening. and grilling.

it's the eve of the eve of the evening in which guy and i get on a plane and fly to Cozumel, Mexico and arrive very very early or very very late, however you want to say it...and stay up after hours of travel because life around is just too unbelievably freaking exciting. and different. and our hearts pound. and it's that feeling that doesn't come hardly ever. like the happiness can reach the center of your heart the way the fear always can.

so. on this eve of the eve of the day of all this, i say LOVE to you and to tell you that with the fortunate occupation of our New President in the white house in january...that i can now say PEACE to you and really feel it's possible. and goddamn. goddamn if that isn't just the BEST THING EVER.



(hopefully i can check back in on later days before returning on jan. 2. but i'm not bringing the laptop. it won't mix well with the sand i plan to live in.)