i don't necessarily want a new drug

i tried a new drug last night. i haven't had that experience since ecstacy in 1992. GHB. how weird. actually, what's weird is that (boyfriend) got super high and i felt only a tinge. we did the same amount. WTF? we're going to try it again later in the week. i felt like an alien insect standing in the doorway, gracefully dragging on my cigarette, completely unaffected while he stood before me, a lowly human, reeling from the effects, eyes rolling back in his head. he looked at me through half-drawn lids and said, "you're advanced."