Punch-Drunk Death

the feeling was gone, but now it's back. it's more like thoughts, but they have a lot of feeling.

i can't stop thinking about jeremy blake and theresa duncan, two successful artists, and their suicides. theirs is a love story, and a mystery. i first read about it in vanity fair upon arrival in bali. it's weird and crazy and stunning. i was left with a cement block on my chest for 24 hours at least. now that feeling is back.

what is this about them wanting to "hire old men to fuck them in the ass" (vanity fair)? that's so out of left field. about scientologists? people following them? about losing it so badly. so much left unsaid. did theresa go insane and was jeremy a casualty? or were people really following them and were those people really scientologists? is scientology a powerful cult? or is it just a thing that the media has built up to mythological levels? WHAT HAPPENED to these two people?

i was on the third paragraph of the vanity fair article when i realized i used to read theresa's site a couple years ago. i have no idea how i came across it, but i liked the way she wrote. unusual in a way i can't describe. maybe the subject matter. i remember it clearly because i saw her picture and thought she looked too normal to write that way.

i've been a fan of jeremy blake's since Punch-Drunk Love and Sea Change. both featuring his art, i believe they both came out about the same time. (in fact he designed four covers for beck's record, all of which beck had produced in differing quantities. awesome.) when i read this story i was shocked to say the least. i hope more information comes forth in the future. it seems to me this story is far from over.

look at this weird site i found today when i was researching a medicine i'm going to start taking. seriously, WTF is scientology?



(jeremy blake killed himself by walking into the atlantic ocean. is there more a dramatic way to go? i asked guy this and he said, "yes.")

UPDATE: even more weird scientology stuff - a friend of mine sent me this link yesterday.