butts are ugly

i've come to realize that butts aren't that attractive. i'm seeing a lot of butts lately at the gym. butts are actually kind of gross. i don't know why i thought i liked them. i guess because guy has a great butt. i started wondering if everyone's butt is cute when they're little or if the butt you have as an adult is exactly like the one you had when you were little, just bigger. like some women's butts, even though they're toned, have an awful shape, sort of pinched at the bottom and balloon-y at the top. ew. did they have that butt when they were a kid? was my butt cute when i was little? it's not now, but that's because it's got cellulite and it's twice it's normal size. i know that i had cute calves when i was little, i mean, i really liked them. i had pride in their shapeliness and how they looked in knee socks. i hope i can have a cute butt when i get all the fat off of it. but really, there aren't many out there that are attractive.

tangent: my mom used to ground me for saying "butt." she had the right intentions, she's a southern belle with excellent manners. i do enjoy saying it now though: BUTT BUTT BUTT BUTT hi mom, BUTT!!