sometimes i think i'm not enough of a challenge to my shrink.
today was one of the good sessions. one of those hours where i just fill her in on all the cool stuff happening, things i'm feeling solid on that we've talked about before, things that are improving, fun times i'm having etc. i get a feeling during these kinds of sessions that i'm just her good friend and we haven't talked in two weeks. even when i talk about family stuff it feels like i'm rehashing boring stuff that's already been said and she tries to come up with a coping idea that could be useful, but she says it in a way that's "trying." trying to help. and i receive it in a way that is noticing that and covering up for it so she doesn't feel uncomfortable, while, at the same time thinking, "uh, duh. i totally came up with that idea like 10 years ago."
i'm not working with it and therefore it isn't working for me. is that an AA saying i picked up from one of my many favorite alcohol/drug/insanity recovery memoirs or something?
i think i just bored myself.
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